Im gonna brag about Jesus real quick. Bear with me.
I wake up every morning and ask God to show me a piece of His character that I maybe haven’t seen before… that He would blow my mind to pieces simply by who He is and that I could genuinely learn something new about my Lord Jesus Christ. And I’m sure He does that for me every single day, the only reason I lay in bed at the end of the day feeling like that prayer wasn’t answered was because my sin kept me from seeing it. Not because He didn’t reveal Himself to me, but because I just didn’t recognize it.
With that being said, when I DO recognize it, it’s a freaking awesome day. For obvious reasons. And today was definitely one of those days. Today I learned more about what it means to have a God who genuinely loves you and who genuinely doesn’t need you to earn His love. It’s unconditional. I knew that, but seeing it happen is a great reminder of that truth.
I said to myself today “I don’t know why God would allow all of this greatness to come from my bad attitude. The only reason conversation X Y and Z happened was because I was having a pity party and LOOK AT WHAT HE DID ANYWAY”. One conversation led to another which led to another which led to another which led to yet another, ALL of which brought Him glory and all of which make me so excited that I could literally write a book about it on tumblr. But I’ll spare y’all.
He let all of those conversations happen because He loves me. (Which is a crazy thought. That He’s going to show me He loves me by allowing me to rejoice and celebrate in Him. WHUT.). Simply because He loves me. He didn’t need to wait to love me until my heart was right.. He wants to restore my friendships and the friendships of other people because He doesn’t like to see His children hurting or upset. It didn’t happen today because I prayed it would. It happened today because He loves me.
I do, now that I think about it, think my heart was in the right spot. Maybe not at first, but it definitely got there. But I don’t think that all of this awesomeness happened because of that. It wasn’t a reward for my obedience. I guess what Im trying to say, as silly and simple as it might sound, is that every time I’m blessed, it’s not because I earned it. And can I just say how awesome it is to so deeply understand something that it sounds so simple? Because I’ve known since I was little that God’s love isn’t earned. I just think I saw that truth in a different light today.
And now I want to scream because I could go on and on and on about HOW FREAKING AWESOME HE IS.
please. please someone ask me about it, because I would love more than anything in the whole to explain to you this awesomeness of my Savior and what He’s doing in my life. Your mind will be blown.